These days...

I know it's been a long while since I've written...although I'm not sure how many people are actually keeping up with me:)However, I think I write to feel good and that's a pretty good reason!

It's the new year, 2009...and so much has changed and is changing. Not only in the world but just in my life.

I'm having a baby! :) I'm 14 weeks along and happy as can be with my boyfriend...I never thought I'd been going through this, because I always said nah at the age of 30 I'll worry about that. I think that is a perfect example that "life happens when you're busy planning" (john lennon said that)...but it's true. I can't express the sense of happiness that this baby has given me, people always talk about how amazing, how wonderful, etc...but I think that's an understatement. We both know that life has changed and will change as we know it, and the path will only get harder but it's not impossible. Our baby has become yet another motive to fight for the life we all deserve, we now want to fight for a good and fair life for our baby...that makes us stronger and happier by the day.

Life is in Colombia has obvisously changed my life in many ways...haha:) but besides that it has been amazing the life that I have here in Colombia, the things I have learned, and have accomplished. I can't wait to finish school to continue my fight for this world, through this world...I look forward to kicking ass. Although I must admit that it has been hard living in such a big city not only because of the cold (ha!) but also because of the poverty levels...My heart can't help but break seeing so many people suffering, so many children suffering...and I realize that sometimes their suffering is a result of their own decisions but I can't help my compassion and it goes deep. I realize that my greatest flaw is my lack of confidience to stand up for myself and my opinions, and that's something that I will overcome. I must overcome if I'm going to be fighting for so many people.

Obama won this presidential election!!! I cried the tears that so many people cried, it's beautiful to see how much we have changed as humanity, how much we have evolved...it only lightens up with future with hope. I'm amazed at how internationally loved he is...He will truly be a great president because of his charisma, his loyalty, his hope, his compassion, his fight...I became a fan of Obama when I read his book, Dreams From My Father, years ago...Then I made sure to buy Audacity of Hope and again it changed my perspective in a lot of ways. I think people who deny him and can't give a good reason for it, need to read his books and then decide on judging him. I think it's the only way we (spectadors) can really know him. After he won, then I found out I was pregnant, one of the first things I thought of was wow my baby will be born into a new generation to really have an African American as President of the United States of America...to be born in a generation of change. How exciting...

On the other hand, a few days later I was watching amazing documentaries (well, news specials) on CNN...one about genocide and the other was Planet in Peril...they both made me reach down into my soul and think twice about the world...about humanity. It's hard to admit there are horrible things happening in the world and it's even worse to think that there are a lot of people who don't care or who don't see it...It made me think that although my baby would be born into a new generation of cahnge, he/she would also be born into a world where the term and defintion of GENOCIDE exists...it shouldn't. And after so many years of chaos, blood, millions of lives, etc...we still can't overcome Genocide...why? I can only hope we can unite as HUMAN BEINGS and overcome war. I think it's gotten to a point where it's just plain ridiculous. We're better than this.

Today, I can't stop thinking about the Israeli-Arabe conflit...the massacre and war happening in Gaza. I did an investigation project over this subject and it made my eyes open wide...This is such a complicate situation because both sides have their arguments, both sides have suffered...but history doesn't lie. Justice will come, and Palestine will be free one day. We need PEACE IN THE MIDDLE-EAST...they really need it.

In conclusion, life is goooooooooooood:) of course besides missing my friends, my brother, and MY MOM!!!! But I'm growing a good sense of independence...I'm still fighting and still searching my soul...peace love and happiness to you in the new year!