Blog from the past 1

I thought I'd be kind enough to catch people up on my move here...this is blog I wrote a couple months ago when I made the decision to leave.

Friday, February 23, 2007
Current mood: loved
I'm leeaavin on a jet plane...

but I know I'll be back again.

So here I am. Last week I got the response I've been waiting for, it didn't say what I wanted it to say but it created a path for me. Finally. This means I can finally take this and move forward. I'm leaving. And I'm excited.

I'm not giving up, no matter how many people like to think that, I'm not. I've lived in this place for so long that it feels like home yet I'm not allowed to call it home, until you know that feeling don't tell me I'm giving up. Maybe I'm giving up the chance to be here and work the next couple years of my life but that is not what I want to do. All I have ever wanted to do is go to school, and if that means I have to go elsewhere to do so, so be it. I'm gone. I'm not giving up, I'm moving on. And it's about time. I can't always be here because I'm afraid to leave the people or this place I call my comfort zone. I've spend enough time running around in circles and now I need to walk forward for ME. This is what I want, I want to go to school. I want to make a difference in this life. YAY!

I'm sad to leave the people that I value more than anything in the world. And then I realize that I'm going to be with my dad, who I haven't seen in 5 years, and my entire family. I'm going to be Colombian after so many years of being Americanized. Nothing bad can come of this. Only the pain I'm going to feel when I realize that my friends aren't at arm's reach. How do I say goodbye to the people that have had a huge impact on my life? I will find out soon.
This country is a great country, and compared to some countries it is a free country. But to be honest, me leaving this country is my freedom. I've had so many limitations for the simple reason that I wasn't born here. Regardless of the fact that I've been here for 18 years of my life. That makes me sad. Life is fair because it's supposed to hard, it's a trade off...it can always be worse.

"A STRONG FOUNDATION IS NECESSARY IN THE ATTEMPT TO LIVE OUT YOUR DREAMS" -tristan prettyman-(check out her music, she's a bad ass!)

I created an amazingly strong foundation for the rest of my life. I look at all the friends I've had and still have...I'm in awe at the fact that my life started like this. Everyone that I have met or had some sort of relationship with has had an impact on my life. Ames, Iowa has been the number one teacher in teaching me tolerance. I love my girls who continue to make me laugh even if they're in Scotland, Wisconsin or in the next room. The guys who taught me politics, and good music to listen to. Not even just my close friends, but their parents and all the families that have had a sense of compassion for me. Thank you. I am who I am because of everyone that has been a part of my life, even if it was for a second. These next couple months are going to be the hardest but the best because I'm moving on. And I can't wait to get started on the rest of my life. People leave all the time, and say good bye all the time, life is full of new beginnings and this is mine. I love you all so much and I can only hope for the understanding and support that will allow me to live on. I have dreams that reach much farther than the outskirts of Ames, it's time to live them out. I'm awesome awesome awesome at staying in touch, and that will never be issue. I hope to see everyone in the next couple months for a hug and kiss. One love.

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